So Many Times

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So many times,
again and again,
in a constant cycle,
I am back to where I started.

It appears somewhat different,
only subtle nuances make it distinguishable,
yet like all living things,
we are the same despite our individuality.

I walk in a straight line to return to where I started,
thwarted by my inability to progress,
despite the evidence suggesting otherwise,
it is a welcome suspension of disbelief.

How things change to stay the same,
like returning home from a holiday,
all that was once familiar is now foreign
and we spot things we were once blinded to.

I live as I age,
no ending to what felt like a beginning,
so many times I’ll be back,
to tell my tale again.

Bad Decisions

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Only one decision away from losing it all,
thought I knew it all,
but I just blew it away.

Got one life to make it work,
this life of many,
I don’t know how many remain.

Could slip up any day,
a matter of time,
before it all catches up with me.

Just one day away from leaving it all,
it didn’t turn out the way I wanted,
but all good things come to an end,

And I only hope – that all bad things don’t last forever.

I Should Know Better

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I want to go places,
Reach for higher things,
But when the phone rings –
I answer it!

I have dreams,
I know who I want to be,
Yet I am always the first
With a drink in his hand.

I know better,
My inner voice,
Reminds me every day,
But I’ve got a short attention span.

I could do so much more,
I’m ready to go,
Yet so overwhelmed by the possibilities,
That I take up no opportunity.

There’s more to me,
Than meets the eye,
But I’ve been such a convincing liar –
I fool myself!

I look forward to tomorrow,
For today’s outlook is bleak,
And I am only one bad decision away
From losing it all.